I have not been on this site in a long time. It seems I’ve lived an entire lifetime since I last posted.
I had a bit of a nervous breakdown with mom being there with me.
I packed whatever I could get into my Nissan cube and I just left.
I tired starting my business up in the next county over but mom found out where I lived so I moved again.
That’s not the only reason but it’s one of many.
I have been living with some friends, renting a room and grooming in the garage.
I miss privacy
I miss being naked
I miss red bean buns
I miss my life
I do have a nice friend whom I see very regularly now. Didn’t think I’d ever date on a regular basis again and he’s BLONDE with BLUE eyes, if you can believe that.
I’ve got 6 months to save up to get us a place. It’s rained non stop in Georgia. Every day it rains I loose three hundred dollars. Cold hard truth. I have not paid a car payment in two months but the insurance and everything else is up to date. I am short on money. So very very short. But I am away from that crazy pill popping mother of mine even though I had to pretty much run for my life.
My sister is having her labor induced Sunday and mom will be there. I am too much of a coward to go up there. Or I am too wise. Either way, I stay off facebook and it’s been quite a relief, not being at my family’s beck and call when it comes to mother. I gave her the better part of my life. I have done enough.
Its time for me to focus on MY daughter now and making sure she does not end up like mom. She needs my focus and support and a healthy place to live. I don’t know where that will be yet but I have faith something will come together. I get up every day, I wash my face and get dressed, and I go to work. That’s all a woman can do.